Dear Dave, Kurt & Kris,

Dear Dave, Kurt and Kris,

I have so much to tell you guys, about what you taught me, about the importance you had, and still, have on my life. You have been there, when no one else has.

I would never underline enough the importance and impact that you and Nirvana have always had on my life. In my darkest times, when I was feeling crushed by peer pressure and judgment, when I was feeling so weird, different, and alone; that I would have questioned the whole purpose of my presence on earth and the importance of being a singular human being, you were there ! I just had to listen to you, read about you or look at pictures of you and, all at once, my solitude was peopled. I have always felt like you were my friends, if though I don’t know you and you don’t know me. You’ve saved me countless time, and you taught me that it’s important to embrace my differences, to don’t be ashamed of who I was. 

Through you, your musical strength, the fact that you gave all you had, your whole body and soul, to your music, I was able to catch a breath of fresh air. By proxy, all my anger and sadness went away. Without knowing, you have always been there for me when I needed. You were my voice, you were my comforting presence, and you were my resourceful support. For me you didn’t just represent Nirvana, you embodied the perfect example of judgment free friendship, and unconditional love. Every now and then, when I’m feeling down, I isolate myself and I go for a Nirvana retreat, it’s loud, it’s bold and it’s judgment free. You are still my breath of fresh air, and I admit that very few people are aware of my love and passion for you guys…I’m afraid, if they don’t understand, that would tarnish my beloved, unconventional and precious musical relationship with you. I love you so much, and I will always be grateful for your presence and for teaching me to Come As I Was